A couple of days ago I posted about learning not to consume for sport, and mentioned that I'd been redirecting my consumer impulses towards eating.
Yup, after today's weigh in (my first in three weeks, but that's another post for another day), I find that I'm up five - FIVE - freaking pounds. Dang! I am basically back to where I was in May. Basically I haven't lost any weight for five months. Amazing how I can pretend to everyone that I'm actually on the Weight Watchers program.
But enough of that - I'm back at it, starting right now. Goal weight of 155 by December 31! It's just all getting a little old. Yes, it's a journey and bla bla bla - but I'm sorry, it's not just a journey for its own sake - I've been in this to get to a certain weight and - damn it - I must get there before I run completely out of gas.
All the .69 cans of tuna I bought on sale at Zellers yesterday are really gonna help. And there was a great deal on shampoo (especially since I had COUPONS) and laundry soap and juice boxes and cereal and items for Cam's birthday next weekend....
Clearly I still have a lot to learn about consuming. Realized today that learning about "enough" was a resolution for me this year. And I am learning. Hey, it's a journey.
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Sunday, September 26, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Happy Mother's Day
Nope, not a treatise about the joys (and sorrows) of motherhood, though I've certainly had my share; and not a reflection on my special day - although the day and the entire weekend were exemplary, and I'm still choked that the kids, 12 and 14, actually sat down and MADE me cards...
Nope, it's about the white jeans, and about eating much less food.
So I did get into the jeans for Mother's Day, but they didn't really fit - they looked AWFUL- made me look like a fat old prostitute! John said they never would fit - cause there is a difference between "not fitting" "ill fitting", and those jeans are the latter - too low in the rise, too big in the waist - things that will only get worse. So I'm calling it a victory, but I'm gonna have to set the pants aside and look for a new pair of white victory jeans.
Yeah, so eating less - it's a good idea if weight loss is what you're after. I started counting points again this week - I only get 22 now - YIKES! and it's been a real challenge to fuel the body properly with that amount of food. But absolutely doable, and the weight is coming off - I actually saw 171 on the scale this morning, even after last night's lovely steak dinner (I counted EVERYTHING!). We'll have to see what the official Weight Watchers weigh in brings tomorrow, but I'm totally stoked to stick with it for at least another few weeks and get down into the 160s before the month is through.
Nope, it's about the white jeans, and about eating much less food.
So I did get into the jeans for Mother's Day, but they didn't really fit - they looked AWFUL- made me look like a fat old prostitute! John said they never would fit - cause there is a difference between "not fitting" "ill fitting", and those jeans are the latter - too low in the rise, too big in the waist - things that will only get worse. So I'm calling it a victory, but I'm gonna have to set the pants aside and look for a new pair of white victory jeans.
Yeah, so eating less - it's a good idea if weight loss is what you're after. I started counting points again this week - I only get 22 now - YIKES! and it's been a real challenge to fuel the body properly with that amount of food. But absolutely doable, and the weight is coming off - I actually saw 171 on the scale this morning, even after last night's lovely steak dinner (I counted EVERYTHING!). We'll have to see what the official Weight Watchers weigh in brings tomorrow, but I'm totally stoked to stick with it for at least another few weeks and get down into the 160s before the month is through.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Boot Camp Comes to a Less Than Spectacular Finish
How easily it can all come off the rails - something I've learned the hard way, and KEEP learning the hard way. Always the hard way, over and over again.
Well April Boot Camp wasn't a huge success - despite the big 10K event that I was all ablog about - I really didn't spend much time at the gym, or out walking - and the eating was just a little out of control. Admittedly there was a lot going on at work and home- I didn't even make it to Weight Watchers last week, but seriously that's no excuse. I have to just own this.
Here's the tale of the tape:
Chest 40
Waist 36
Hips 44.5
Thigh 25
Weight 176
If there was any progress, I'd have to describe it as "glacier-like". Note the new "wider" jeans image. Interesting, I pretty much doubled the width of the image and that body is STILL hot in those pants. A lesson to be learned.
But it's May now, a brand new month and time for a brand new challenge. JTM asked me this morning (after informing me that today was NOT the last day of April, but rather the FIRST day of May - I'm posting this a few days late) what my goal for May was. I quickly made some silly story up about eating less and exercising more, whereupon he reminded me that those weren't actually GOALS. I'm doing those things: eating less and exercising more, under the super-contrived theme for the month of "May, More or Less" - but my actual GOAL is to weigh the same as I did at the end of May 2003, when I rocked the scale at 168. That, and wear those white jeans out to the premiere of Sex and the City 2, at the the end of the month - cause I don't think I'll be striding around in them next weekend (Man, Mother's day is damn early this year!)
Well April Boot Camp wasn't a huge success - despite the big 10K event that I was all ablog about - I really didn't spend much time at the gym, or out walking - and the eating was just a little out of control. Admittedly there was a lot going on at work and home- I didn't even make it to Weight Watchers last week, but seriously that's no excuse. I have to just own this.
Chest 40
Waist 36
Hips 44.5
Thigh 25
Weight 176
If there was any progress, I'd have to describe it as "glacier-like". Note the new "wider" jeans image. Interesting, I pretty much doubled the width of the image and that body is STILL hot in those pants. A lesson to be learned.
But it's May now, a brand new month and time for a brand new challenge. JTM asked me this morning (after informing me that today was NOT the last day of April, but rather the FIRST day of May - I'm posting this a few days late) what my goal for May was. I quickly made some silly story up about eating less and exercising more, whereupon he reminded me that those weren't actually GOALS. I'm doing those things: eating less and exercising more, under the super-contrived theme for the month of "May, More or Less" - but my actual GOAL is to weigh the same as I did at the end of May 2003, when I rocked the scale at 168. That, and wear those white jeans out to the premiere of Sex and the City 2, at the the end of the month - cause I don't think I'll be striding around in them next weekend (Man, Mother's day is damn early this year!)
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Boot Camp Week 3 Results (or D'oh!)
So I had one of those crazy AHA moments yesterday - I've lost 40 pounds, right? So it would make some sense that I probably don't need to take in as many calories as I did when I weighed 215, especially since I'm TRYING (with apologies to Yoda) to lose more weight. But I haven't been eating less - have been chowing down merrily, and rightously beaking off to anyone within earshot about what an extraordinary Weight Watcher I am.
What a crock! Once again, I'm calling myself out as a fraud. If I were doing the "point counting" thing, instead of the "Simply Filling" thing, sure as God made little green apples, I'd be taking in a helluva a lot less food each day. Next week that's the plan. No more "eating till you're satisfied"...I may NEVER be satisfied - so starting Monday I'm eating just enough, and counting points again. Mother's day is coming and I'm determined to celebrate in those Size 12 white jeans - with NO camel toe. Or sausage thighs. Or muffin top. Man I could go for a sausage mcmuffin right now. Or a Camel!
Anyway, my stats reflect my efforts this week. One lousy trip to the gym - yeah I've been "tapering" for the big race tomorrow - and enough excess food to keep the dial on the scale pinned firmly in the mid-170s.
Chest 40
Waist 35
Hips 45
Thigh 25
Weight (174-176 fluctuating)
What a crock! Once again, I'm calling myself out as a fraud. If I were doing the "point counting" thing, instead of the "Simply Filling" thing, sure as God made little green apples, I'd be taking in a helluva a lot less food each day. Next week that's the plan. No more "eating till you're satisfied"...I may NEVER be satisfied - so starting Monday I'm eating just enough, and counting points again. Mother's day is coming and I'm determined to celebrate in those Size 12 white jeans - with NO camel toe. Or sausage thighs. Or muffin top. Man I could go for a sausage mcmuffin right now. Or a Camel!
Anyway, my stats reflect my efforts this week. One lousy trip to the gym - yeah I've been "tapering" for the big race tomorrow - and enough excess food to keep the dial on the scale pinned firmly in the mid-170s.
Waist 35
Hips 45
Thigh 25
Weight (174-176 fluctuating)
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Workin' it at Work
Not time for a bootcamp update but Woot! Woot! for me. I was down another 2.5 lbs at Weight Watchers weigh-in last night. The meeting was about tracking our progress in various ways and I had a chance to reflect on the changes in me - the person I am becoming. I've been at this a long while, long enough that I really identify more as someone who makes healthy choices than one who needs to constantly be led. And that feels pretty freaking good.
I had to lay on some food for some work events this week, and I made sure that above and beyond all the sandwiches and muffins and cookies, etc., there was also fruit and vegetables available - I honestly did it for myself, but really it was good for everyone.
We're pretty good here at work most of the time anyway; there is always milk in the fridge and apples and bananas for the taking, and a bike room, and showers, and twice-weekly boot camp, and softball, and yoga, and incentives to choose a "green commute" and nobody bats an eyeleash when you show up for a 1:00 pm meeting all sweaty and wearing spandex...it's pretty cool, actually. Perhaps typical of the West Coast, or of 2010, I don't know. But as a transplanted prairie girl I dig it - it's so much easier to live the green and healthy lifestyle when you have a workplace that nurtures it.
I had to lay on some food for some work events this week, and I made sure that above and beyond all the sandwiches and muffins and cookies, etc., there was also fruit and vegetables available - I honestly did it for myself, but really it was good for everyone.
We're pretty good here at work most of the time anyway; there is always milk in the fridge and apples and bananas for the taking, and a bike room, and showers, and twice-weekly boot camp, and softball, and yoga, and incentives to choose a "green commute" and nobody bats an eyeleash when you show up for a 1:00 pm meeting all sweaty and wearing spandex...it's pretty cool, actually. Perhaps typical of the West Coast, or of 2010, I don't know. But as a transplanted prairie girl I dig it - it's so much easier to live the green and healthy lifestyle when you have a workplace that nurtures it.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Flying Solo in the Kitchen
Put JTM on a plane to New Zealand and Australia for two weeks yesterday - Half the time he will be in Brisbane presenting at at conference, but the other half is a much-planned and anticipated solo visit to New Zealand. I'm so, uh, HAPPY for him!!!!
So for the next fortnight it's just the lads and me left to fend for ourselves. The chauffering and form-signing and keeping-in-line shouldn't be too much of a challenge - they're growing up and have become pretty independent over the years, and they're good guys and really good company.
But it's the COOKING that's got me in knots! I used to love cooking - and I'm pretty good at it, but over the years it's become necessary to give up control of something - I just couldn't do all the household stuff on my own once I went back to work - and JTM's developed a real passion for cooking, so he's now the head chef in our kitchen (he's been gone for less than 24 hours and there's already a dozen of his cooking shows stacked up on the TiVO). We usually consult briefly on the weekend about the menu for the week, and I make sure we have everything needed for school lunches (still my domain), but that's about it. Most nights I arrive home from work and meal preparation is already in full swing.
So I've put together my own very kid-centric plan for the next several days, and we'll see how it goes. I figure the most appropriate thing is to focus on making nutritious versions of what they like and then figure out how that fits into my own eating plan. Shouldn't be too tough since my plan involves grazing my way through the gargantuan box of spring mix JTM bought the day before he left, garnished with some kind of ultra-lean meat, and snacking on celery and Gerolsteiner on my way to the gym to work out. I'll mostly be just sniffing at their food as I jog by.
I can just hear everyone at Weight Watchers tsk tsking at this approach, telling me that I should be making the kids eat what I eat, and that a restrictive eating plan is not sustainable...well pfft! This two-week period is a great opportunity to really clean up and simplify the eating, and knock off a few extra pounds. And YES I will get in my oils, and my milk!
Today I'm making slow-cooked beef curry for Roti, and Shepherd's Pie with extra lean ground beef - it has more vegetables in it than the lads will ever know (finely grated carrots add to the volume without calling attention to themselves), along with a generous splash of red wine that gives it an incredible richness - it might be the very best thing I make. Yesterday was home-made macaroni and cheese. I make it with Catelli Smart pasta to give it some fibre, and I cheat by using cheese sauce mix from a packet, along with several types of grated cheese - not a ton, just enough to give it a little gooeyness. It's the topping that makes it though: lightly buttered and seasoned panko. Sometimes I put in peas, but this time I just steamed some broccoli as a side. I made enough for a small army so there are two more meals in the freezer now.
Note: the monotasking and list-making is not going so well; I'm still spinning in circles, trying to keep everyhting in my head while flying off in all directions at once - OUCH - but the laundry is still caught up!
So for the next fortnight it's just the lads and me left to fend for ourselves. The chauffering and form-signing and keeping-in-line shouldn't be too much of a challenge - they're growing up and have become pretty independent over the years, and they're good guys and really good company.
But it's the COOKING that's got me in knots! I used to love cooking - and I'm pretty good at it, but over the years it's become necessary to give up control of something - I just couldn't do all the household stuff on my own once I went back to work - and JTM's developed a real passion for cooking, so he's now the head chef in our kitchen (he's been gone for less than 24 hours and there's already a dozen of his cooking shows stacked up on the TiVO). We usually consult briefly on the weekend about the menu for the week, and I make sure we have everything needed for school lunches (still my domain), but that's about it. Most nights I arrive home from work and meal preparation is already in full swing.
So I've put together my own very kid-centric plan for the next several days, and we'll see how it goes. I figure the most appropriate thing is to focus on making nutritious versions of what they like and then figure out how that fits into my own eating plan. Shouldn't be too tough since my plan involves grazing my way through the gargantuan box of spring mix JTM bought the day before he left, garnished with some kind of ultra-lean meat, and snacking on celery and Gerolsteiner on my way to the gym to work out. I'll mostly be just sniffing at their food as I jog by.
I can just hear everyone at Weight Watchers tsk tsking at this approach, telling me that I should be making the kids eat what I eat, and that a restrictive eating plan is not sustainable...well pfft! This two-week period is a great opportunity to really clean up and simplify the eating, and knock off a few extra pounds. And YES I will get in my oils, and my milk!
Today I'm making slow-cooked beef curry for Roti, and Shepherd's Pie with extra lean ground beef - it has more vegetables in it than the lads will ever know (finely grated carrots add to the volume without calling attention to themselves), along with a generous splash of red wine that gives it an incredible richness - it might be the very best thing I make. Yesterday was home-made macaroni and cheese. I make it with Catelli Smart pasta to give it some fibre, and I cheat by using cheese sauce mix from a packet, along with several types of grated cheese - not a ton, just enough to give it a little gooeyness. It's the topping that makes it though: lightly buttered and seasoned panko. Sometimes I put in peas, but this time I just steamed some broccoli as a side. I made enough for a small army so there are two more meals in the freezer now.
Note: the monotasking and list-making is not going so well; I'm still spinning in circles, trying to keep everyhting in my head while flying off in all directions at once - OUCH - but the laundry is still caught up!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Make it stop!
So happy- nay, relieved - to be back in the office for the day. There has been far too much consumption over the last ten days, and I'm fed up (literally) and worn out! This year has been better than most others - there have been lots more walks (JTM has even been hitting the gym pre-dawn), a lot less meals out, and even a little crafting time with the MIL (Yes! We've been doing CRAFTS!), but it still all feels like too much.
Every year I seem to fall into the trap of using that time between Christmas and the end of holidays as some sort of dietary and consumer free-for-all - a last hurrah of spending and bingeing, before the rigor of broke-ness and New Years resolutions begins. And every year I end up with a lot of extra pounds and merchandise that I just didn't need!
This year, fortunately, the whole holiday consumption machine will grind to a halt a few days early as John's mom is going home on the 31st. I've got a bag set up in the corner of the bedroom for the "many happy returns" - stuff I bought on impulse during the Boxing Week sales and will return on Jan 2, and I'm primed to hit the gym and get back on the Weight Watchers bandwagon ASAP. This is the first year that I feel like I will be working to get back to something, rather than trying to start something. I've made great progress this past year on the exercise and weight loss front (38 pounds down, only 25 to go!), so as the holidays wind down and 2010 arrives, I'll just be falling back into old habits rather than trying to develop new ones. What a great place to be!
Every year I seem to fall into the trap of using that time between Christmas and the end of holidays as some sort of dietary and consumer free-for-all - a last hurrah of spending and bingeing, before the rigor of broke-ness and New Years resolutions begins. And every year I end up with a lot of extra pounds and merchandise that I just didn't need!
This year, fortunately, the whole holiday consumption machine will grind to a halt a few days early as John's mom is going home on the 31st. I've got a bag set up in the corner of the bedroom for the "many happy returns" - stuff I bought on impulse during the Boxing Week sales and will return on Jan 2, and I'm primed to hit the gym and get back on the Weight Watchers bandwagon ASAP. This is the first year that I feel like I will be working to get back to something, rather than trying to start something. I've made great progress this past year on the exercise and weight loss front (38 pounds down, only 25 to go!), so as the holidays wind down and 2010 arrives, I'll just be falling back into old habits rather than trying to develop new ones. What a great place to be!
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